Monday, August 28, 2006

Adik

Assalamualaikum wbt....

mmmmmm... its a long weekend... :)... Alots to do... But i'm doing nothing...

Last weekend i'm going back to my hometown, missing my little younger sister which i dont see from last Hari Raya Haji, bout 6 months. Wowwwww.. she's now even taller than me... mmmmm... tak sempat nk buli pun. (actually saya paling suka gaduh ngan dia). suka buat dia nangis, suka marah dia... She was spoiled by my mother care.. Manja sangat... kekadang sampai susahkan ma... Pepun aku sayang dia sangat2.. Sedih la kalau nak tinggalkan dia tu.. time tu la aku yg nangis.

Kate adik aku yang sorg lagi, "haaaa, adik ader duk gaduh jer, nk balik dia lak yang sedih lebih-lebih".


I just feel like my little younger sister is still as small as before, dont feel like she can go thru this difficult life.. just afraid that she 'll be like me... huhhhhhhhh.... I love u my dearest sister... Sebab tu la sesajer cari gaduh tu, saje nak manja2... Kalau manjakan macam ma manja, nanti lagi spoil la jawab nyer... Nak ajar adik juga aper yg adik kena tempuhi dalam hidup ni... ma takkan sentiasa ade kat situ dik... belajar la berdikari, adik kan dah meningkat remaja.. it's time to learn how to stand on ur own feet my dear... Learn how to b independent... :)...

Watever it is i luv u so much, even that u r the almost naughty girl compare to all siblings. u alwiz said that i dont love u as much as i love ur sisters, but everybody is the same 4 me my dear. It's becoz all of u, i'm still here today... Luv u all so much... mmmmmmuuuuuaaaahhhhhhh....

Thursday, August 24, 2006

ALHAMDULILLAH...


mmmmm...


It was a week ago i've started this blog.... actually i've thinking to published a blog since a long time ago.. but me myself.. just have no confidence to do something and show it to everybody... but i like to read, write, n definitely watching tv (not related)...

Actually that is my problem... BIGGGGGG problem... CONFIDENCE. My confidence level sometimes is very low... I've doing a lots of things to build up my confidence, but as what are trying to translate by the drawing, the path is too far away... Referring to my closest friends, it;s may be bcoz of my previous life experience... Ntah la... Sick of thinking how to be a better person... Just be myself, no pressure, no pushing, no loads... Just me... :)

Is it that easy to be just me... Sometimes its not and sometimes it's necessary to be somebody else (which is i hate very much but i have to do it almost all the time)... Y? Life is too complicated... Who r the one have decided to be like this? Me again... Hehehehehehe... Salah guna kuasa ni, nasib baik tuk diri sendiri...

Anyway, THANKS GOD... To bring alots of happiness n excellence since i was born... Even i'm like this, but at least i still have alotss of people oround me which is i've to consider all the time.. And they make me strong day by day.. Thanks... Thanks.. Thanks... Thanks... And thanks a lot... I'm not a good person to all of u, but u'r alwiz a special person to me.... Alhamdulillah...






Thursday, August 17, 2006