SICK

I'm sick...

Totally sick, about a month, continuous, fever, flu, stomachache, allergic n now my so call "gigi bongsu" is on the way to rise....

Huaaaaaa... banyak nyer dosa aku, alhamdulillah tuhan kasi sakit. tapi Ya Allah sakit nyer tak terkira, dan yang paling aku tak tahan sakit gigi ni la... sakit ooooo... menangis aku malam2 tahan sakit walaupun dah makan painkiller... Sampai tertido.. Pastu tersedar balik bila kesan tu abes.. it was 4 in the morning, n i cant even cont my sleep till morning.. how cruel my youngest teeth is..

My friend call yesterday telling me to put some serbuk coffee/nes on the gusi n then buat bodoh. I've tried n it works.. But, i've to repeat it for a several times. Waaaaaaa... Pahit maaa, how can i act as it is not there in my mouth... i can feel it, tak sedap langsung. I tell my friend and he says

"who told u the taste will be sweet?
oooo... thats y they put some sugar when they make it,
bcoz its sweet lah?"

kena marah, dah la sakit gigi...

Watever...
The coffee/nes things work, but u've to do it for a several time. Do it la kalau skit sangat.. asik mengeluh jer... hehehehehe... ok lorrrr... nk cakap tu jer.. sakit maaaa... but suddenly i got a message,

"eh u've to do one more things, if not the sakit will getting worse"

oh no.. there is "next". Then wats next.. Luckily it was smth that i like to do... It was

"Go makan, cari air kelapa.. swish it in ur mouth...
n dont ever forget to repeat it tomorrow"

no problem... ok la coffee/nes + air kelapa...

*yang air kelapa tu belum try, tak jumpa semalam...tgk la ari ni... kalau kat kampung, amik sabit kait sendiri jer kat pokok... sure smlm lagi dah ader air kelapa...

kEMeRDekAaN

mmmmm... it's friday... penghulu segala hari memulakan hari pertama bulan september... seribu rahmat dari Yang Esa... :) mmmm.. Alhamdulillah, aku masih disini sehingga ke hari ini.. menyedut udara yang sama, berjalan di bumi yang rata, menikmati keindahan yang serata. mensyukuri nikmat yg tak terkira...

Betapa indah nyer ciptaan tuhan, tanpa sebarang kecacatan, tanpa sebarang kekurangan, dengan seribu kelebihan, dengan jutaan keinsafan... Di situ la maka lahirnya kemerdekaan.. kemerdekaan juga kurnian ilahi. Ciptanya untuk kita supaya kita boleh beribadat dangannya, menginsafi kejadiannya, mensyukuri nikmatnya, sujud kepadanya tanda terima kasih atas segala keamanan yg diberikannya... Itulah kemerdekaan yang hakiki, menikmati segala yg pasti, menghargai segala yang terjadi.

Menghargai pengorbanan nenek moyang kita dalam mengusahakan bumi seaman ini untuk kita diami, semaju ini untuk kita nikmati, seindah ini untuk kita hargai. Pengorbanan yang pastinya berjaya atas bantuan yang Esa, pengorbanan yang pastinya berkesan dihati seluruh umat di malaysia, pengorbanan yang pastinya diingati sehingga ke akhir usia setiap generasi bangsa, pengorbanan yang pastinya memberikan kita nikmat kepada generasi selepas merdeka...

Indah sungguh bumi malaysia hari ini... Dihias indah dengan bangunan setinggi mencecah awan, dipenuhi manusia pelbagai kelakuan, diwarnakan tanaman pelbagai gaya rekaan.... namun sedarkah kita akan semua keistimewaan, berkelakuan kah kita seperti insan merdeka, yg penting merdeka kah kita seperti yg diwar-warkan, merdekakah kita seperti yang diiktirafkan????

Tiada kata seindah bahasa yang dapat digambarkan... Terlalu banyak kemajuan jua menghasilkan pelbagai kepahaman. Terlalu sukar untuk kita sampaikan, apakah erti kemerdekaan yang sebenar... Semua insan terasa merdeka, tetapi merdekakah kita, sedang minda masih dijajahi, sedang kelakuan masih mengikuti, sedang kepalsuan masih mengelilingi..

Adik

Assalamualaikum wbt....

mmmmmm... its a long weekend... :)... Alots to do... But i'm doing nothing...

Last weekend i'm going back to my hometown, missing my little younger sister which i dont see from last Hari Raya Haji, bout 6 months. Wowwwww.. she's now even taller than me... mmmmm... tak sempat nk buli pun. (actually saya paling suka gaduh ngan dia). suka buat dia nangis, suka marah dia... She was spoiled by my mother care.. Manja sangat... kekadang sampai susahkan ma... Pepun aku sayang dia sangat2.. Sedih la kalau nak tinggalkan dia tu.. time tu la aku yg nangis.

Kate adik aku yang sorg lagi, "haaaa, adik ader duk gaduh jer, nk balik dia lak yang sedih lebih-lebih".


I just feel like my little younger sister is still as small as before, dont feel like she can go thru this difficult life.. just afraid that she 'll be like me... huhhhhhhhh.... I love u my dearest sister... Sebab tu la sesajer cari gaduh tu, saje nak manja2... Kalau manjakan macam ma manja, nanti lagi spoil la jawab nyer... Nak ajar adik juga aper yg adik kena tempuhi dalam hidup ni... ma takkan sentiasa ade kat situ dik... belajar la berdikari, adik kan dah meningkat remaja.. it's time to learn how to stand on ur own feet my dear... Learn how to b independent... :)...

Watever it is i luv u so much, even that u r the almost naughty girl compare to all siblings. u alwiz said that i dont love u as much as i love ur sisters, but everybody is the same 4 me my dear. It's becoz all of u, i'm still here today... Luv u all so much... mmmmmmuuuuuaaaahhhhhhh....

ALHAMDULILLAH...

mmmmm...


It was a week ago i've started this blog.... actually i've thinking to published a blog since a long time ago.. but me myself.. just have no confidence to do something and show it to everybody... but i like to read, write, n definitely watching tv (not related)...

Actually that is my problem... BIGGGGGG problem... CONFIDENCE. My confidence level sometimes is very low... I've doing a lots of things to build up my confidence, but as what are trying to translate by the drawing, the path is too far away... Referring to my closest friends, it;s may be bcoz of my previous life experience... Ntah la... Sick of thinking how to be a better person... Just be myself, no pressure, no pushing, no loads... Just me... :)

Is it that easy to be just me... Sometimes its not and sometimes it's necessary to be somebody else (which is i hate very much but i have to do it almost all the time)... Y? Life is too complicated... Who r the one have decided to be like this? Me again... Hehehehehehe... Salah guna kuasa ni, nasib baik tuk diri sendiri...

Anyway, THANKS GOD... To bring alots of happiness n excellence since i was born... Even i'm like this, but at least i still have alotss of people oround me which is i've to consider all the time.. And they make me strong day by day.. Thanks... Thanks.. Thanks... Thanks... And thanks a lot... I'm not a good person to all of u, but u'r alwiz a special person to me.... Alhamdulillah...

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